Saturday, May 23, 2015

confession 2: I'M CLINGY



I’m clingy. I can’t help it. Whenever I’m with him it’s hard to contain myself. I just want to keep him close but not so much to where it would be uncomfortable. But I also don’t want to just shut myself out of how I really feel about him even if he doesn’t feel the same way. It’s not who I am. I have to express it. Unfortunately, as much as I hate clinginess, I couldn’t help but be that way with him, especially whenever around other people (girls most likely). Maybe I’m just being so naïve. Maybe it’s being more possessive than love? No. I don’t stop him from talking to girls but I do get some type of subtle rage feeling within me whenever I do see him with other girls. Is that normal?

I figured out that there are two levels of clinginess: cute and obsessive. Cute would most likely be when it’s just little by little of clinginess to the opposite sex or other individual. It’s just cute acts and very little childlike tantrums that are just playful. Obsessive is more towards wanting him all for you and no one can have him. It branches out to even deeper levels that could be very dangerous to both parties. Pretty much you get the idea.

Sometimes I wonder which one I am. Sometimes I think I’m in the middle. I don’t always like it but when it does come out, don’t shun me away. Just accept me for me, because I don’t always do this to just anyone.



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